Friday, February 05, 2010
i love picnik.
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Thursday, February 04, 2010
it's like calling into a dark cave
Last paper tomorrow. many things has happened. including mummy's birthday surprise, sis's birthday..a cycle on ubin...(can't remember what else for now). Oh yea, and exciting exams of course. i'm flying on sat! loads to blog and journal about. and lots to settle before wee hours of sat.


Anyway, yesterday wasn't really a gewd day, with me feeling quite down about some things and feeling a tad worse when i looked ahead. But I think, the passages I've done for qt these two days come at such an apt time (it's scary how they Always do). It's like calling into a dark cave and now a bit of echo's back, haha (:


Yesterday, when I was wondering whether I've messed things up, where how when why...there was Psalms 139. And then, as I journalled down how I think I've been doing thus far, why and how I've been doing so, there was Ecclesiastes 3.

Had a good talk yesterday, and there seems to be some sense of closure/conclusion? I'm still a bit wobbly, pending the reply we get..but ohwell. For now, there is Romans 8:28-39 and Jeremiah 33:1-3.

Alright. Time to hit the books. I've been on holiday these few days - and I've been having a good time (:
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Sunday, January 31, 2010
bundle of both please
Im rather afraid for MS paper tomorrow. But yet, i always feel so blissful studying. aha o.O
Some things here and there are on my mind but yet i feel rested.


Can't wait for exams to be over. But ohwell. I'm really glad for this joy that I have, most of the time, somehow.
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Wednesday, January 20, 2010
thanksgiving
im always so glad that im playing the piano for the cantonese service, though i miss sunday school and more youthful company for a little while (: the friendships formed with older people have been so humbling and the newer contemporary chinese/cantonese songs really speak so much to me. i'm so thankful for chinese, really. :D they say so much!
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Sunday, January 17, 2010
seasons
escaping from my report writing. looks like i'll defy word limits :\


"I quite like finding myself momentarily between seasons. It doesn't happen very often and when it does, the moments are fleeting. Sometimes the moments are unrecognizable because the season is going to shift without warning. And when the moments are recognizable, I have to catch them in mid-air before the next season swamps me. But when I do catch them, it's a bit like someone has pressed the pause button and I can think for a moment. The sounds have ceased and I can hear again. I can look forward. I can look back."
My seventh monsoon by Naomi Reed

Thank you God for the different seasons in my life, which you have perfect knowledge of.

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Sunday, January 10, 2010
2010

Started 2010 with a picnic, like we did last year. We're becoming more progressive - equipment-wise. it was a blaaazin' hot day but it cooled down when we got to the place. Eventually started drizzling a lil, exactly the weather on 1 jan 09! 


First week has been busy and a little bit stressful (but very focused-good.) with prac tests. Camped 3 days on my yoga mat - i do that when i have to bounce up early to study. And 3 out of 3 mornings i got up before my alarm rang. amazing stuff.


The new year joy was briefly interrupted by news of my gramma being warded for a stroke. It really upset us as a family and I was quite afraid, cause it seemed as though one of my worst fears had come true. I see the patients I work with, I give my best to each patient, but it just scares me to be reminded how i've got grandparents and this whole stroke thing is just...anytime, anyone kinda.. And it will definitely be a different experience. At the same time, I know my grans are growing older. yea..ohwell. I shan't rattle on. My writing is seriously degenerating. It's a tragedy.


The first 3 days, while waiting to hear how she was doing and how she was functioning, wild thoughts were really just going through my mind. This hymn came to mind though. This version's the fastest I can find, sang to old folk, ironically! It's loooong, but i like the older-english. Means more.



I know not why God’s wondrous grace
To me He hath made known,
Nor why, unworthy, Christ in love
Redeemed me for His own.


Refrain
But I know Whom I have believèd,
And am persuaded that He is able
To keep that which I’ve committed
Unto Him against that day.


I know not how this saving faith
To me He did impart,
Nor how believing in His Word
Wrought peace within my heart.

Refrain
I know not how the Spirit moves,
Convincing us of sin,
Revealing Jesus through the Word,
Creating faith in Him.

Refrain
I know not what of good or ill
May be reserved for me,
Of weary ways or golden days,
Before His face I see.

Refrain
I know not when my Lord may come,
At night or noonday fair,
Nor if I walk the vale with Him,
Or meet Him in the air.


After prac tests FINALLY ended, i also went to see an art exhibit which featured works from 2 of my friends! it was nice (:

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Thursday, December 31, 2009
December!
1-5 dec: This year saw me sitting out of vbs completely. After the first day past, it kinda didnt feel that bad. Most things can be gotten used to. I got a shirt and it did make me feel a lot better, haha. 


6 dec: StanChart rubdown saw me working with a really vulgar and boisterous woman. I was so furious. May we find ourselves far from degenerating to that kind of management of ourselves and circumstances.


12 dec: Adventure race with jiaxian and philip. Let me try to recount all that happened.
I got up bright and early and packed my bag. Packing took me longer than expected. Had a good breakfast, drank up and left home. Met teammates at tampines interchange and waited for the bus. We packed and reorganised bags on the bus since we could only bring 2 bagpacks on race.


We got ourselves registered and put on our bibs. Looked around and saw a few strong teams which jx dutifully explained their v. strong points and all. I saw my lecturer and lab assistant taking part in the staff category. Visited the loo and I kept rubbing on sunblock (which is the best smelling sunblock i've ever smelt. it makes me happy.) Did a bit of stretching and talking and we sat against a rockwall in the shade and we read from 1 Cor, the chunk from which meta theme verse is taken from. I felt a bit silly. We prayed and decided that we'll race in a way to win the prize, but we'll play fair and not be overly competitive and forget to be kind to racers who need help.


So fast forward to flag off. We started running and that paced us out pretty well. Reached our first stop after much running and we had to count the number of pillars on those old colonial fences. We kept getting the number wrong. We counted over 300 pillars. We were going mad counting. Finally got it right after more than 5 tries? More running..


Ran to the next stop and we had to match pictures to objects, identify words and from there form another word. It wasn't too difficult, except that it was up this long stretch of slope. Was quite tiring. But the search proved a distraction and we worked pretty well together. We were definitely not leading...We saw a number of teams finish and move on. After we got it right, we got our next clue. More running. This part of the run was a little bit long...didn't really feel like running at some parts, but it was good that it wasnt Too sunny.

Then we had to find a stranger to finish a piece of pizza. We found a family with two lovely girls. Pros: They were so sweet looking, i had a good break watching and chatting with them. Cons: They took such small bites. We were saved when their daddy came along and gobbled everything up after he knew it was a race we were in.


We had to get on the ferry to pulau ubin. Dried up a bit and replenished sunblock. Refueled water and food on boat ride. The weather was Mega hot for a very rainy week. I began to dread what was to come on ubin... Got on ubin and ran.
Then we got our bikes. Rode. Reached the next checkpoint and we had to break and dehusk a dried up coconut with no man-made tools. Here's when jx and philip went barbaric and broke the coconut into smithereens with their barehands and rocks. I did nothing. Well, i prayed they wouldnt get hurt. They really went all out. The camera crew had a good time. My hands were hardly dirty. But...ahh...I can't do something like that...kudos to their violence and aggression.

We had to keep the smashed up coconut to pass our final checkpoint so we carried it along. We cycled on. The uphill bits were tough sometimes. But, still okay. We guessed our way around and referred to the maps and instincts a bit. Got to our next station and we had to leave 2 bikes behind. The two guys ran and I got the bike. I offered to carry my very heavy backpack. I could barely pedal up the steep parts. I got a bit of help, to be pushed up the slopes a bit. 


Then we had to get to the next station and put on life jackets. it made carrying the bag even more difficult. But because I got the bike, i should not complain, reaalllyyy. Then we ran/cycled some more. At the next station, we left our bike and bags behind and ran. It was very rocky. I kept thinking 'please dont trip, dont fall, no sprains...where are we going...i dont want to get drenched..ooh watch the rocks. oh where do i place my feet on the next step.'
We reached a quarry and we jumped in. To my surprise, it was wonderful (: Swam a bit and got up. It was superduper refreshing. I still prefer swimming pool water, but yea. Thereafter, in our drenchedness we got our bags and I got on the bike, the guys ran.


More running. Then somewhere along we finally got to remove the life jackets. We got back on our bikes. And rode and rode. The trails were lovely. I loved how every turn and every slope and corner was different. Concentrating on maneuvering the bike kept my mind occupied, and that was very good of course. The guys were singing :D God bless them. and we just kept riding. It was hot and humid but the skies were gorgeous. We biked some more.


Finally we said goodbye to our bikes, and got our triyak. We only had 2 pedals, and so I sat in the middle and contributed by encouraging the two peddlers and lending my bag as a backrest for jx. They were close to bickering on steering the triyak. But after a while, they were just really exhausted and we just had to be patient. We just chugged on slowly with sea water and sun on us. Finally reached the next jetty and we heaved the triyak outta the water. Then - we had to do a jetty jump bags and all. Jumped into gross saltiness and swam to shore.


Ran. Soaked in gross seawater. I was annoyed and irked, but too far along to care anymore, yes. I was at a campsite I saw at for obs in sec 3 (: All the memories it brought back (: Then, jx mentioned that there was a rockwall nearby. We were all pleading in our minds, hoping it wouldnt be rock climbing. I'm not particularly strong at climbing and the guys, having done all the pedalling, were tired too. I hoped that they weren't so cruel. Refilled our bottles, laughed at the state my bagpack was in and wondered what we were doing next. Flying fox?


No. We had to do this...I dont even know how to describe it. Crawlclimb up this slope of soapy canvas with mud at the bottom by hanging on to a rope suspended midway...and climb on top of each other with our muddy shoes and all...This was the station when I sustained an injury I never anticipated. I hung on so tightly to the rope with the weight of me and 2 guys and two bags hanging on to me. And I remember I kept repeating 'my finger is v painful...my finger's going to die...hurry up....my finger's gone...' Compressed a nerve. Still recovering. I'm just really gd at getting superficial nerve injuries. The recovery process is quite cool to sit through. alright, yes, because these are minor things.



But we were really good at this station! When we arrived ,they told us that we were top 3 in our category and we were so surprised. We cleared it in a try. Phew! More running! We were now into the jungly bits and good thing was it was much less sunny! Hooray. Ran and we had to navigate our way thru a maze. It was so dark. Got some scrapes inside but we managed to find the password and cleared this station!


After this was just A LOT MORE RUNNING. Unknown to us, we were 2nd. Then another group (with really gd runners) caught up with us and we both took the wrong turn! We walked thru loads of spidey webs and stepped on ant communities and we got overtaken when we finally followed the compass out of the woods. Finished 45 seconds after them, and came in 3rd. Was quite a good race, and i dont think i'd have survived without teammates. Not as bad as i thought! Phew.



13 dec: This year also saw me missing sky camp! I dropped by for worship on the first night. Was nice. Also had dinner with family cos it was my parents' wedding anniversary. Meanwhile, there was loads to work on for attachment. And also Christmas party. Quite a headache, but yea, a bit at a time. I still had a very good time with family.


14 dec: My email and facebook accounts got hacked into. I suddenly realised that my identity is very unique and important to me -.- Besides that, I was just plain Annoyed and anxious. I AM SO ANNOYED with those cyber criminals. Gosh.


19 dec: (and the many days leading up to it) was spent prepping for party. I'm so thankful for all the help I had. i enjoyed myself planning for this party, though there were fair shares of worries and solid discouragements. It's been a wonderful journey. Words just dont suffice anw, so I wont try.


20 dec: My sis got baptised. My dad planned for our whole family to be in the same shirt. Haiyo.



4th week of dec: Attachment was tapering down. So, talking about clinicals, it wasn't totally easy though I wished I was at outpatients. But I had loads to be thankful about. One most important one would be having a great friend, zhi rong to be with! It really made things much better (: Now I get a better idea of the many more clinicals i will have to survive thru. I had a friend who is dropping out of physio after this clinicals though. Sad because she's such a nice girl, but if this isnt what she wants, and if she has thought thru' carefully, it's a good thing.


Christmas: (:



28-31 dec: Camp - Metamorphosis, Geared to Last. It was a good experience.


NYE: Coming home and having steamboat dinner with family. Had a good time talking about future dreams and dreams forsaken. I guess we can't have everything and we dont have answers for everything. Till we make better sense of what we're heading towards, I thank God for your lives and I love you with all my heart. 


That's December in a gist!

p.s. this is  awesome - origami a-z
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Thursday, December 10, 2009
the more we get together
at dinner
[continued from previous topic/convo]

me: im having an assessment tmr.
dad: perfect. drink more of the soup (my daddy did dinner tonight...and he was expounding benefits of ingredients)
mum: huh what Ax
sis: you're always having exams anw...
dad: okay! i know! i go to the hospital with cakes and pastries and pretend to be your discharged patient. What time is your teacher coming? I'll be like '.........(mildly dramatic and embarrassing content)......'


after dinner in the study
mum: (looking up at the shelves)...haiya...the frames that I put up always gets moved away. and he keeps expanding his territory. (referring to my dad's frames)
me: huh what photos have you got...
mum: The snow white & the 7 dwarfs i stitched...the poster...it's beautiful okay. The posters of his idols get all the space. (referring to my dad's frames of stefan edberg)


much thanks to my sis for spending hours practicing the piano, so that she can stand in for me for c2 this week.
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